“Howard be thy name!”

[personnamedrose]

it’s like 11 pm on a Tuesday as i start typing this. I’m cross legged on the floor of my bathroom - normally when I’m in this position it’s for demoing guitar + vocal stuff that I think the reverb of the room would complement, but I don’t really feel like doing that, i haven’t written any new stuff in ages. i did buy a mandolin online today though!! it’s arriving next week or maybe early this week. i borrowed a mandolin from a friend once and I had fun, and then they smashed it so that kinda ended my brief mandolin arc. but I’m hoping with one of my own it’ll give me more chances to use it in stuff. it seems fun. my friend june used one in a song once.

today I called jay a few times, talked to my friend juno (no relation to june) who writes wonderful songs as a Slight Threat, and walked a friend through installing mixcraft since they were having some trouble recording stuff in audacity. they’re kinda new to music but I see some talent in them. i see talent in everyone, actually. i feel bad dunking on “bad musicians” as I used to tend to because i think anyone can write a good song, it just takes some time speaking as someone who wrote garbage for like a year until it clicked. i think this might suit its own entry actually but not tonight.

aside from that I didn’t really do much. lost my phone a few days ago, so that sucks - I’m gonna be getting a prepaid card for the one I lost a year and a half ago and only recently rediscovered soon, if I find the old one I can back up the stuff on it anyways.

oh!! wait! when jay and I called we worked on a tentative instrumental recreation for an old song of ours (working title Howard Be Thy Name). she wrote the music and some lyrics for it twoish(?) years ago based on an idea I had for a post-apocalyptic scenario where Howie Mandel is worshipped as a god of luck and abundance, but it didn’t really go anywhere because we were too busy with other stuff. but she brought it up in a call and I was struck with motivation, so I did a brief 4-track version (drums, pad, bass, synth string) based on the only mp3 I had and then we added some keys and chiptune synths and sampled guitars to it. when she gets a new laptop I think this song’s gonna turn out spectacularly, the harmonies and chords in the original demo go insane - it’s mostly A minor stuff but it gets across an atmosphere hard to explain.

i love writing songs with her. i mean, obviously i also love her romantically, but like… she clicks with my songwriting in a way I can’t explain. the songs we write together are always the best. the songs SHE writes are the best. i love her so much.

yay queer people!! see you whenever, wherever. hope you’re doing well in these scary times.